Hello.

Simple, short & sweet.
Youth Handball Training @ serangoon. > Home > Sleep > Revision Time > Onlined. Yeap, that's what happened for me today. Short & sweet aye? (: I guess, I'll be slowly start to love studying. I'm having tuition tomorrow, @ 10am @ home. Oh yahs, & readers of my blog, i might not be able to come online as frequent already. I needa buck up on studies already. So might not be coming online as often lahs. haha. But do remember to tag my blog when you come ! (: Teehee. Anyways, anyone that wanna look for me, can slowly have fun to find my phone number (: Or you can ask from any of the people that have my number. I'm going offline soon. Byebyee peepos. Love ya.
(That message, has kept me wondering for a very long time. Did you send to the wrong person, or was you referring to me? Or did i get the wrong meaning? I needa know, i really really needa know girl)

Friends, might just backstab you in your back without you noticing.

'When shit hits the fan, you'll be the one to clean those on the wall'

-Leroy(Adam Khoo Workshop)

This sentence really means alot,

When you throw shit onto the fan blades, & it hits the blade, it'll all be on the ceiling and walls. & You'll be the one that clears your own shit. In short, you'll be the one clearing up your own mess of what you've done. You'll be responsible for whatever that you do. For whatever that you do, or have done.

There's noone there for me, when i need someone to talk to. Liars, everyone says they tends to be there for you whenever you need someone, it's a lie. A fucking wide lie. Friends, are only problems and troubles. What do they know? What do they understand? What do they feel? When you feel upset? They claims that they know, they understand, they feel what we feel. Comeon, stop lying. Have the friends of one's, ever gave a serious thought, what one would feel, if you claimed to be there for someone, but when he/she really needs someone to talk to, at least, to talk to, were you there? That's why, i've never really trust friends. Friends are bullshit. Take some time to think about this, 'Have I really been there for him/her when he/she needs me?' & 'Do i really mean it when I say I'm there for him/her?'. Think about these questions, before telling people, you're able to be there for them when they need someone. & you might understand, why i've begun to stopped trusting people.

Thoughts:

-Because at this point of life, at the lowest peak of life, I'm really sick and tired of life.-

-Why do everyone have to focus on the goodpoints of life? Why not the badpoints of life? Badpoints doesn't necessarily means things that kills you. It strengthens your mind, to what you wanna achieve in life, for example, death for me.-

(When have you been there for me? I hate this feeling now, I hate it. I don't wanna live no more, death is all that's in my mind these few days. Would you still smile like you do? If I'm dead?)

A wonderful day with the guys indeed despite the incident. (:

• Sports Carnival
• MacDonald's
• Slack With The Boys
• Bus-ed Home.

Hello everyone,
I'm back to post on my daily rantings again. It's now gonna rain already. Sky so dark, Thunders deafening my ears, & lightning blinding my sight. Okay, I'm just kidding, just trying to talk some cocks. Haha. Alright, today was sports carnival also known as 'Sports Day'. I participated in the 'Inter-Class' Basketball competition. But after that suddenly play with Secondary 3s. We gave them the thrash of a lifetime! My team didn't even lose a match. Haha. (: Okay, so let me announce the scores to you. 1st Round, [66:4](THRASHED), 2nd Round, [33:2](THRASHED), 3rd Round, [Walk Over](Win), 4th Round, [30+:10](THRASHED), 5th Round, [Walk Over](Win), 6th Round, [30+:6](THRASHED) & till the last match, we were disqualified. We was leading, [27:21](Winning), until the teacher-in-charge came in and started scolding. Okay, you must be wondering why we get disqualified, if not we would have gotten champion for the basketball competition already.

So the story started like this, we were advancing and advancing. Till somewhere around Quarter-Finals. Then 4-8 didn't have enough people to play for them. So 4-7 helped them out to play. 4-8 won the match, they played well. (: 4-8 versus 5-1, & 4-8 won. (With our help, I'm not stealing credits uhs!(: ) Okay, had a really tough match. But the 4-8 people won lahs. Then after that, the when we were playing our championship match, the teacher-in-charge came in and started shouting and scolding. & then he question-ed us. Then he found out from someone else that we had helped 4-8 to play for the competition. & then he disqualified us. But at that period of time, we were leading. [27:21](Leading). Then jiu say the class that was fighting with us for the championship is the champion, because we cheated. What the hell lohs please, even the 4-8 people agrees, that if it has to be disqualified, it should be 4-8 being disqualified, 4-8 sided the 4-7 people. But seriously, from my own point of view, you see, 4-7 people helped 4-8 to play, so 4-8 had extra players. But 4-7 didn't add any players. & 4-7 should even be disqualified lohs. Biased! By right we should get 1st one, okay. this thing nevermind. Then after that we wanted to find who was it to say out that we had a mix of players, then while walking, we heard from other people, that the 3-8 people had also used other players from other class. So they told confessed to the teacher-in-charge. That's very sportsman-like. Unless the losers, lost the match nevermind, still go complain to the teacher-in-charge. LOSER!

I despise losers like them. As in not the 3-8 boys, but the other one. People who are there should know who it is. Hah! Then in the end we got second, and 4-9 shifted from the 3rd Position to the 1st Position. Becoming champions. But the 3-8 boys didn't even get the trophies. Our boys didn't went up to get the trophy. Everyone was damn irritated. Seriously, the anger has like reached till the top of our heads already. But it's alright boys, we know we're the champions, and nothing's gonna change the fact. We'll get our trophies one day, I'm sure we will (: Keep up the good work boys. WE ROCKSZXZX! \m/

After that went to slack with Gordon, Joseph, Jonathan.p, Benjamin, Reon, Kavizhnu, & Shihao. But Shihao and Gordon didn't went to eat with us. They went home straight. But it's okay, we all had a super duper happy time crapping and laughing at lame jokes! (: THAT WAS CRAZYYY MANNN! Love itttttzxzx! (: then slack for a few hours, then Ben and reon wanted to go home, so wished Ben happy birthday and we parted. Then after that we went to the guitar shop at don't know what place. Haha. Then walked around, slacked, and went home soon after. Haha. It was really fun indeed. Especially in the bus, we laughed our heads off our necks man! The whole bus was like filled with our screeches. While Joseph was happily sleeping. Haha, he's like seriously knock-ed out from the soccer match man! We kept disturbing him, he still won't wake up. Haha. Really, thanks guys for the day. (If you get to see this post. I don't think they'll be able to see it, cause it's like they all don't have my blog or email.) Haha, After that back to lotone, met up with yuinping and felise after they finished watching Night At The Museum2. Haha, After that jiu bus-ed back home already lohs. Haha, that should be all for today already. Thank you for reading my blog post once again! Sayonara! (:

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I HATE, (THE WORLD)

Fuck everything.

Sick, terribly sick.
Yesterday, stay up till 5-6am to do my D&T, but after that didn't go to school. due to some reason. After that went to yewtee to see doctor. Got MC for today. because i didn't go school. Today was suppose to check scripts. But yahs, i didn't go. I can't take the stupid phlegm in my throat anymore. Seriously, i can't breathe with so much phlegm stucked in my airway. Fuck this phlegm, fuck it. I hate school, school's demoralizing. & when i even tries to studies, and she comes back nagging and saying i don't study. It seriously piss me off. My mood's bad, can't take it, get far away from me. I on't give a fuckcare. Get this, i don't.
(I've got nothing much more to say, i'm forgetting you soon. & i'm moving on. I wanna move on, but i don't know how to. Tell me how :/ i hate you, i hate the world, i hate everything. Comeuse i need someone.)

天都哭了,泪都干了.

HIHI!

IT'S ME AGAINNN! Haha, it's now 4:37 already. I'm still super duper wide awake. Haha! I'm doing my DNT. Which is actually due on Friday. But my DNT teacher gave me an extended deadline. Haha. He's a damn nice t'cher. I'll never regret having him as my DNT teacher. Thanks Mr Kamar! (: Haha, My target, by 1 more hour, I'll have to complete my whole 10 pages. Then it'll be a total of 35 pages. Haha. And now I'm only at 30 pages. Damn, that sucks. Haha. I'm going back to do already. And ohyah, I'm meeting yuinping later @ 5am plus, I'm gonna take the first 307 bus to take whye. And slack together with her. Haha, I'm such a kind soul ain't I ? Haha, Not like her, now still at the bed sleeping like swine like that. Saliva drooling out. Whole body spread across the bed. Haha! Just now 3 am plus smsed me say can't get to sleep. Damn bird lohs she. I got a feeling she won't wake up. Super cock-a-nathan de sheee! :x Okay, I'm going off to complete my DNT. BYEBYEEEE! (:

(I coughed out blood four times, i don't know what's wrong. I don't have to see a doctor. I guess i know what he'll say when he sees me. and it'll be 'You have lung infection, again' Haha! It's the same symptoms. I can't really breathe well. Airways shut closely tight together. When i tries to breath properly, I'll cough, then I'll be gasping for air. and when i sneeze, there's blood also. In both my phlegm and mucus. It just disgust me so much. YUCKSZXZX! But how i wished you cared.)

(The End)

Sometimes, a hug is all that we need to feel better.

Free Hugs Campaign.

Inspired by Juan Mann,

"A man who's sole mission was to reach out and hug a stranger to brighten up their lives.In this age of social disconnectivity and lack of human contact, the effects of the Free Hugs campaign became phenomenal.As this symbol of human hope spread across the city, police and officials ordered the Free Hugs campaign BANNED. What we then witness is the true spirit of humanity come together in what can only be described as awe inspiring.In the Spirit of the free hugs campaign, PASS THIS TO A FRIEND and HUG A STRANGER! After all, If you can reach just one person."

Adopted from the Official Home of the Free Hugs Campaign

& His story about how it started:

"I'd been living in London when my world turned upside down and I'd had to come home. By the time my plane landed back in Sydney, all I had left was a carry on bag full of clothes and a world of troubles. No one to welcome me back, no place to call home. I was a tourist in my hometown.

Standing there in the arrivals terminal, watching other passengers meeting their waiting friends and family, with open arms and smiling faces, hugging and laughing together, I wanted someone out there to be waiting for me. To be happy to see me. To smile at me. To hug me.

So I got some cardboard and a marker and made a sign. I found the busiest pedestrian intersection in the city and held that sign aloft, with the words "Free Hugs" on both sides.

And for 15 minutes, people just stared right through me. The first person who stopped, tapped me on the shoulder and told me how her dog had just died that morning. How that morning had been the one year anniversary of her only daughter dying in a car accident. How what she needed now, when she felt most alone in the world, was a hug. I got down on one knee, we put our arms around each other and when we parted, she was smiling.

Everyone has problems and for sure mine haven't compared. But to see someone who was once frowning, smile even for a moment, is worth it every time."

This is a real life story,

& This story touched the soul beneath me. This is what i wanna be part of. To bring smiles to people, even if it's just a short while. By bringing a smile to someone that you've just helped in a good deed, just by sparing a hug for them, whether it's a bear hug or a small little hug, a smile will still be planted to their face. Doesn't doing a simple good deed makes you, yourself happy for a moment/period of time? 13th Febuary, it's Free Hugs Day. Do your part, & put on a smile onto a stranger that you've never met. & Free Hugs Day isn't only on the 13th Feb. Everyday's a Free Hugs Day.

"Everyone has problems and for sure mine haven't compared.

But to see someone who was once frowning,

smile even for a moment, is worth it every time."

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Because, i've learnt to take the hard blows.

• Fire @ Neighbouring Block
• Handball training @ School
• Ran like madddzxzx!
• D&T Timee!
• Homee!

Let's talk about the fire,Okay, so it goes like that. I was going for my training today. Then i was walking & walking, then saw a damn big crowd looking upwards. Like all straining the neck like that. Hah! Kidding, as in like I'm exaggerating only lahs. Then i as a SUPER KAY-POH Singaporean, (PROUD TO BE A SINGAPOREAN!) went to see lahs. So took a photo of it. The fire was kinda huge, this is what i would say. Because, 2 fire engines was caught down. All the fire-fighters were like, damn hiong siahh! They're all fighting against time. Being afraid that a life might be lost to the fire. A scene of life, and death. & looking at it for awhile, i left and went for school.



It's been like, a month since i last touched handball. Ever since the last incident. Till today morning around 9plus. Was the first time that i ever touched a handball again. I reached, & our t'cher-in-charge asked me to rest. Don't have to do the things that they were doing for the moment, it's like too strenuous for me. But i didn't wanna go training without doing anything at all. So i got this kick of running. So i started with a few rounds, around the school's parade square first, then as i ran, i counted the rounds. I ran & ran, counted & counted. 1, 2, 3, .. 6, 7, .. 10, .. & still counting. I didn't feel a single bit tired. 20 rounds and counting, i still wasn't. 30-40 rounds, still running. I just didn't know how to describe the feeling. My t'cher-in-charge kept asking me to stop. then I'll say 'okay, last round. Going to finish already'. Then I'll just keep running and running. Because, I'm seriously not over-exerting myself. I'm fine. Then to t he last round, i crossed it. 50 rounds for the day, i ought to take a rest. 50 rounds around the school's parade square. I wanted to run more, but my t'cher-in-charge doesn't allow. Yah, so after that got games, i was in Mr.Gabriel's Group. Okayzxzx, now *SKIPSKIPSKIP!



So there was this time, i was walking across the court, out of the blues, a handball was flying towards me, I was sick, so couldn't really reacted or jump away. Damn, the ball was fast. That was the last thing that i remembered before the ball hit my left BACKSIDE of my skull. After that, i couldn't remember already. But what they told me was that, i had a blackout for around 20plus seconds before waking up. I couldn't feel anything, till i felt water in my ears, and i couldn't open my eyes. Everything felt very cold, like as if i was trapped in a cold cell room. First time i ever had a so called 'black-out'. After i woke up, then they carried me to a side. But i remembered, everyone was talking, veryvery loudly, then i finally woke up. & i started questioning people what happened to me. Then herman told me! (: Haha! What a loser i am right? :x


Okay, let's *SKIPSKIPSKIP! then went for D&T. I really need to thank Mr.Karma. He taught me how to do the D&T folio. I was halfway lost, & didn't know how to continue. I aspire to be like him one day ! (: A successful engineering man/teacher. But i don't wanna be a teacher. I wanna be a full-time architect or a product designer! Okay, mainpoint. I hope i can have a career that can designs or is about engineering one! (: Gosh, I've already had part of my future planned. But I don't know how am i gonna achieve it. I gotta start to work hard now. I have to. But it's like, i lack of the determination to do so. Even if i do have it, It doesn't last a long period of time.
(Unless I Have You. To Motivate Me)

Okay, then that should be about all for today already.

OHOHOH,
& I WANNA THANK PENGKOON & VALERIE TODAY FOR BUYING THE MEDICINE AND DELIVERING IT PERSONALLY TO MY HOUSE! (: THANK YOU SO MUCHHHHH ! (:
(Firstly, i thought you'll be the one that is with him. After that, i ended up walking away with a broken & disheartened heart.)

I don't find you anywhere, where have you been?

• Science(Physics)

Today's physics paper was difficult.
So many blanks in my paper.
I don't know what to do anymore.
So many things left undone,
So many things left unsaid.
I have no idea,
What to do next.

I reflected, where would i go after my o's?

Your words,
came into deep consideration into my mind.
I thought about it,
'Where'd i go after my o's?'
& at that moment of time,
I was so afraid,
so afraid.
I don't know what to do with myself.
I'm hopeless, i really am.

& i watched you walked out of me.

Woke up at 1-2 plus today.
Then onlined.
Chatted for a little while,
Then asked people to send songs to me.
Can't wait to listen to it.
That's all for now,
Goodbye.

& When the mountains meet the heaven above.

• Science(Chemistry Paper3)
• Principles Of Accounts(Paper1)

I have no idea,
What to say for this two papers.
It's just a word for it.
'Atrocious'
It's really bad,
I drew on my POA paper,
but after that i couldn't hand it up.
So did another piece.
The maximum marks,
I can score for my POA paper,
Is only 5.
That's bad enough isn't it?
As for my chemistry paper,
It's not that good either.
(During the whole paper,
I couldn't keep my eyes off you.
You told me you'll make my pass my chemistry.
But now, I
I can't even get a damn C6 for my Chemistry.)
That's how bad my paper is.
I'm getting worried about my studies.
I can't afford to fail, again.
During the june holidays,
It's all work and no play.
I'm gonna look up,
For all the teachers everyday of the week,
To help me to improve.
I can't keep going on like this.
I can't.




After school,
Went to the library,
To complete my english homework.
It was to write a Speech,
On Diseases and Littering.
I wrote a 1 & a half page long speech.



& Tomorrow is Mathematics,
And Social Studies.
This two subjects are my worsts.
I've no idea how to get pass them.



(I miss you,)
(I miss you,)
(I miss you.)

Un-usual

Examinations.English Paper 1 & 2,
Science(Physics & chemistry).
English was still alright.
Speech writing and Composition.
'The impact of bad habits on my life.'
I was writing halfway through it,
& RING, time was up.
(I had your name included in my composition)

Then it was science.
Chemistry was a killer.
Out of 20 questions,
I only knew how to do less than 1.
You know what i mean yeah?
Meaning = NONE!
I practically had to like,
'Ti-kam' every answer.
So during the exam,
i was like at there
"MINI-MANI-MINI-MO!,
CATCH THE SPIDER ON MY B---S,
& BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH!"
So that's how i got my chemistry answers.
Physics was still fine,
But i'm not confident of getting a good result.
Was distracted halfway through the paper. (& you was on my mind)
After school,
School was really empty.
Gives me the haunted school feelings.
Then slacked around in school.
Then homed & here i am blogging.
I think that's all that happened already.
I shall stop till here already.
Bye.

Walk out of this, on my own.

Tell me why, oh why.
I can't express this emotional outburst of mine out.
Everything's running through my head,
& it's making me so crazy over simple things.
I've been losing and losing,
losing everything surrounding me.
'Walk out of this, on my own'
It makes sense in every other way.
Friends,
Never tend to make enough time for one another.
Even if it does, it's never enough.
Nothing is ever enough.
Sketch me a rainbow, cry me a pool of blood.

'Hear the meaning within the word.'
William Shakespeare