Plans for after O's.

Okay, this is the 3rd time I'ma typing this.
I kept typing le, then go do other things, come back to facebook, i exit the page. Then realised i typed one whole chunk of stuffs gone! ): Nevermind. What i wanna say is, O's are gonna be over in approximately one week's time. Haha. So these are the things that i wanna do! :D Haha.

Places to go after O's.

• CHALET (If there is any! I hope there is!)
• Sentosa
• West Coast Park
• East Coast Park
• Overseas (After i work and get my own pay!)
• Anderson Wave
• Marina Barrage
• Night Safari
• Pulau Ubin!
• St John Islands

Things to do after O's.

• WORKKK! :D
• Kite Flying
• Picnic
• Camping
• Stayovers @ friend's house!
• SCUBA-DIVINGG!
• Shopping for clothes with pay! :D
• Go for at least 1 CHALET! ):
• Buy KOI!
• Talk about Ghost Stories during Stayovers.
• Tone up my fatfat body! ):

So far,

All these are what I've planned for after O's Levels. Haha. At least gotta complete all thesee! (L) Haha. Alright, will come back to post when I'ma done with O's i guess? Stayed tuned! :D

It's been sometime now.

Hello! this is just a tryout to try to use an application from my phone to update my blog. hopefully it works and i'll update it when imma in the YOG village when imma free! :D

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The Youth Olympics Games National Youth Handball Team.

Youth Olympics Games 2010 - Handball Team

Fun Shot.

Fun Shot, other view.

In preparation for the final shot.

Fierce (No Smiles) Shot.

Full Team.

Full Team, Candid shot.

I'm doing my DPA now.

Having a heart time thinking about what i should write. I shall go back to continue. Hoho. Been stuck there for like hours. Hoho. Byeebyeeee!~

All for you people out there.

Picture taken @ night from room view towards town. Blurred effect makes the light rays awesome!

It's been a veryvery long time since i last post.

I sincerely apologise for that. I've been pretty caught up with almost everything that's part of my life now. The Youth Olympic Games are drawing nearer, and we're still getting prepared. During the June Holidays, it's 3 times training everyday, and the total time added up for a day is approximately 6 - 7 hours. 3 times a day, 6 days training a week. So in total, it adds up to many many hours of tough trainings.

Alright,

I don't wish to post so much about life anyway. Just wanna say, thank you to all those that have been asking for me to update my blog. But due to the time constrain that i'm facing now, i'm afraid i don't have much time to post also. So yah, but if you guys wanna know how i'm doing, follow up on my facebook, i'll be online practically whenever i'm free theree. Hohoho.

Anyways,

Yesterday i went over to Marina Bay Sands to stayover, and have a little bonding session with my cousins. Hoho. The place sure is grand, but there's one thing about it, no place for kids to play :X Hoho. Manymany nicenice sceneries. Hoho. So here are the pictures, i lazy to upload all :X Hoho, enjoy!

View of swimming pool @ the 57th floor.

View of my family's room

Posts about you.

If only i could find a song that truly represents how i feel and what i wanna say, I'll dedicate to you, & maybe even sing it to you to let you know and understand.

No matter how long people are gonna wait,

It's never gonna be enough. No longer how much effort they put in for you, you'll never be satisfied enough.

Like what i've told you before,

True emotions are to be felt by the heart, not through visual or verbal actions.

No matter how many times i tried to run away to avoid the truth, i'll still have to come t realise that there's still things left undone for me

We should be a part, not apart.

Just a look, & i know you're not happy. & i tried to find out about it.

I've heard about what happened. You weren't even happy on stage. I knew something was wrong. But i couldn't text or call out to you. I wanted to be there for you, but i'm sorry. I just can't anymore. I guess, things would be better for you like how it is going through. You've made new friends. & it's good to see. But for right now, this isn't the point. I was pissed when i heard about what happened. Perhaps you did explained, perhaps your instructor didn't allow you to explain. I wanted to fight for your chance for you, but then i realised, I can't. I wanted to do it for you in your shadows, but i don't know how to. I guess you have your friends to talk to now. & i'm sorry to have heard about what happened, but yet i can't do anything to make you feel any better.

You wouldn't know this,

But throughout the entire performance, i was looking @ you throughout. I thought you saw me looking @ you, & i looked down. You might have smiled, but i know it's not right. I texted Audrey to ask her about it. I was correct, there was something wrong. I heard you cried, but got to know that you were better after a moment. Nevertheless, i still think about you all the time. It's not about whether it's lovers or nothing. But when it comes to the person that i'm fond of, someone that i love, i can't take it. I get over-sensitive, i get head over toes for you, i get insane thinking about you, I get affected by the things i hear about you, the things i know when it comes to you, & the things that reminds me of you. I miss you much. Veryvery much. I hate it when i'm putting up with these emotional posts. But i really am not able to tolerate it anymore. I'm losing grip of myself. I'm veryvery tired waiting now, when it's truly over already. I know you need to talk to someone, & i'm sorry that i can't be there anymore. I guess, from how things are going on this way, you and i could never return back to how we were 3-4 years ago. I'm not trying to exaggerate, but everytime i want to come your blog, my heart stops me. Because everytime i come to your blog, i know something else about you. I could almost feel how you feel. I could almost feel your outrage and outbursts of emotions @ times. I don't know whether is it just me or what. But i get affected veryvery easily after knowing things about you. But for what we've become now, i could only stand a side, and not stretching my hands out to interrupt with things. I'm sorry for not being able to be there, but i'm sure there's someone who values much more than me now.

Medical Checkup Report:
Abnormal Heart Rate : 47 bpm.

Marked Sinus With Bradycardia.

I've have to get back to my Cardiologist to know about my heart.

Torn ligament @ the ankle, resulting in loose ankle = Easily sprained or possibility of breaking ankle. (Just have to be more conscious about my ankle now already. Didn't even know i had a Torn Ligament @ my ankle.)

Have yet to know about my Urine & Blood Test.

Need to get back to KKH for Cardiac Check-Up.

(That should be all i guess.)

Emotionally Unwell.

My own quotes, for the day:

"I have to learn to stop visiting your blog."
"I hate to know that my best friend is spending as much time as i did with the one i love."

To Boy:

You'll never know why i did that. You'll never. & I'll never let you know. _|_

To Girl:

glad to see that you're doing fine. I see no reasons for you to brood over such matters of losing someone like me. Because if i were to really meant something to you, this wouldn't be happening.

To Own:

"Get over her.". Is what he constantly reminds himself to do. But it seems impossible. He needs someone to talk to, but everyone is drifting away from him. He need concern from people out there, but there seems noone available for him.

Someone said, 'There're so many other fishes in the sea, so many other trees in the forest, but why did you have to choose the one?' I replied, 'Because she's the one that stands out, the one that caught my attention.'

He knows you don't miss him anymore.

He knows you've gotten over him.

He knows, it has all ended.

He knows, you're carrying on with life.

He knows, things can never be the same again.

He knows, everything now is about you.

He knows, He's falling deeper for you.

He knows, he loves you.

& He knows, he can't get over you.

Fuck you, if you said you're a friend of mine.

I can't stand it when i know you went out with some other guys, & they're someone close to me. Don't you think you've being a little too much in giving me what i don't deserve? I've received all kinds of treatment from you already. Now you're closed with everyone i used to be. Forget it, i was having second thoughts about leaving. But now, i've decided. I really should. I'm washing my hands off you, you both. Don't claim to be my best friend while you're behind me trying to look nice.

P/s : If you're my bestest friend, please do understand. If you try to get my girl, me and you are no longer friends _|_ I promise you this.

Don't ever think it's so gonna happen for me to get over you so soon.

Reality always hit you all the time.
It just depends on how you react and take them on. It has always been true that I've stayed loyal to listening to almost your every single thing you had to say when you need someone to talk to. You've never put words into my mouth before, you've never pushed the blame to me before, you've never hurt me so much before. You make it sound like words you said could be done so easily. Do you think it'd be so easy to get over you? To forget all those memories we once had. I've never thought the both of us would have ended. I guess, i was first priority when it comes to looking for someone to talk to. But I've never thought, there came a female, when it slowly became that you both became the best of the best friends, & then soon, you started finding out things about me. I didn't even know why. You should have known, our status between each other between me and her. You gotta know, if you're fond of someone, every single thing that you've done with the person, it'll affect you someway. Either in a sense of happiness, or a hit-back by reality. Please do try to understand, boys also have feelings also. It doesn't mean, i might be a boy, & i have a stronger appearance on the outside, would actually mean that I'm stronger on the inside. If you've been thinking that way, you're wrong. I cried, on that night that i asked to severe ties with you. I don't know whether you'll feel the same way as i do. But i guess, it doesn't really matters to you now already. I've just made a clean swipe between the both of us. & I'm sure you'll be better off without me. I need a break from all these hit-backs by reality. It's really wearing me off thin. I've tried to patch things up with you. But in the end, it gets destroyed and it pushed me hard down into the ground. I've been trying, trying to find someone to talk to. Hoping it'd give me the feeling, of allowing me to feel that it's you. To let me pretend that I'm talking to you, and also talking about you. It doesn't feel like you, not even a single little bit. I was hoping so much, within the few days, I'd receive a text from you. But i didn't. & I guess, for now. I wouldn't want to receive. Like i said, for this short period of time. Let me grab a hold of myself. I'm seriously losing control. My patience has been wearing thin already, way too thin for me to handle. Give me these few days to grab a hold on regain consciousness of my inner-self. I misses talking happy words with you so much. Where every single message would make me smile whether I'm in public or at home. It might just be embarrassing to look @ my phone & smile like as if I'm doing something stupid. It used to be like this, but it's not coming back again. I know it's not. As long as I'm not first priority, it's never. You've always used to think about how i feel so much. Always thought about how i am. But things are not the same anymore. I feel, that you've slowly been taking me for granted. Like as if, you just met me, and I'm someone annoying. Perhaps you didn't know, but it's hurting receiving treatments like this from you. I had to put on a front, a happy/brave front when I'm out of my house. I don't allow others to see how I'm feeling. Neither do i let them know that I'm not feeling myself. Unless it's @ the peak of my emotions. & I can't tolerate it anymore. & i might just be bursting into tears anytime. None of my listening ears now feels like you. They could never make me feel okay after a period of texting or talking to each other. They can't. It's not easy for me getting over you. It's not. After all these memories we've got through. For approximately 4 years, we've been at goodfriends, at least. & now, you're asking me to let go of you. It might appear easy for you. But it's not for me.

It's okay,

I'll be that shadow following you everytime, I'll be that breeze that brush across your face, I'll be that pillar of faith and strength that you need when you need me. In silence, I'll be supporting you. I'll be morally-supporting you. You won't know how. But I'll be that something to listen to your inner-conscience when you need someone to talk to. Just listen to yourself, and talk to your heart. & listen to what your heart says. I'll be your inner-conscience.

I was suppose to pass you this before you went off.

I don't know if you remembered.
But i used to be the one whom you used to look upon on whenever you needed someone. For at least 4 years, I've always tried my best to be there. You're acting like, you just met me yesterday. & all the things i used to do for you, you've forgotten about it. I don't even know what has gotten into you. But I'm tired already. I'm breaking down soon if this were to continue. I cannot always take the blame you put on me. & when I'm just got to pick myself up.You hit me back in the face again. I'm tired of explaining everytime already. From today onwards, you live your life. I live mine. We walk our own paths. If you'll ever try to intervene with my pathway for my life, i won't even acknowledge you. Like i said, if we'll to walk on the streets tomorrow or someday. & we see each other, please pretend, we've never met before.

It's saturday today.

& I've just finished my training and I'm @ home now. I'm feeling a little uncomfortable. My body within is feeling veryvery warm. It's like i'm having fever within. But guess i'll be fine soon. It's not easy for me to fall ill.

I was trying to be ignorant.
& tried to pretend i didn't see you send that text. You used to crushed me, but what happened? It was gone. & everything between us has stopped isn't it?

Listen to me

My friend told me this,

"Did you know that when people appear in your dreams, it's because that person wants to see you." I was hoping so much that it'll be true. At first, i only knew, if you dream of the person, means you think of the person too much. & that you are/ have been too occupied having thoughts about that someone. But do you know that, i dreamt about you twice. Twice during the period that you were gone. Were you really thinking about me like what the quote says? I dreamt twice. They happened of different scenarios. One of it, i woke up trembling. I woke up with my entire body drenched in cold sweat. I was so afraid of that dream. It couldn't even be a dream i guess. It was a nightmare. I was so afraid. & I didn't want that to happen to me in real life. That's why, I've learnt to realised, that i need you in my life. & i can't do without you. I want us back to where we came from. & how we started out being fond of one another. & was even supposed to go catch a movie together. I regretted, we didn't watch that movie. I wished, time could rewind. & you'll say what you said to me that day again. Regarding to us about the movie, the night i send you home, & all of our memories on the virtual world and actual world. I never want it to stop. I want it to carry on.

But,

I'm afraid. Blames, Fingers, Faults, will get pushed @ me again. & for no reason. We got into a huge quarrel just like that. I want you back, but i want to stop all these quarrels between the both of us. Will you do that, for me dear?

Thanks, my love.

It's about 8.30pm already.

& I've yet to receive any news about you. I don't know if you're back in Singapore already or not.

Oh wait,
No. I've just received a text from you. I can tell you, My mood is like over the moon y'all! Right Audrey? HAHAHA. Yes, @ least now i know, you're finally back in Singapore in one piece. & I'm super happy about it. Never thought that you'd buy me gifts also. Hahaha.

I shall end my post here.

Hahaha. BYEBYEEEE!

It's good to know that you're coming back home.

Overdue Pictures from Sakae.

For the love, that i love.

I'm glad that you're finally coming back home today already.

Somewhere around a week have already passed. You'll i guess you'll be back in Singapore sometime today. Seriously, i can't wait. But you wouldn't know either. So it's okayy (: I know i'm happy having you, i'm contented having you already. Guess you have gotten over me also. But i can tell you, for this few days, or maybe since the moment we had our quarrels, I've been missing you terribly. It's like, the feeling of missing you, is overwhelming me. & I can't help myself to stop missing you. It's okay, sometimes missing you makes me upset, but sometimes, it makes you feel great. Because i know, at least i've gotten wonderful memories once with you together before. & that just makes me so much happier.

I can't wait to wait for my phone to ring,
& see that I've got new message. & that message is from you.

When i had you in my arms,

& within my reach.

Baby, I still feel that you're Beautiful

This song reminds me of you.

P/s: Please stop the music before playing this.

Goodbye, My love.

You're gone just this morning. I wanted to meet you up to pass you something that you could keep with you for your trip. But i didn't. I guess, there just wasn't enough time. I spend the entire night doing that for you. I stayed up till 1.11am till i finally finished making it. It's the Second time i made something for someone who's important to me. I thought maybe it'll make you happy if you keep it by your side. But I was too late. By the time I'm in school already, You've left in the School Bus already.

I have to admit.
I was disappointed that i didn't get to pass it to you. I made it with tons of love, thoughts & filled it with warmth & smiles specially for you. I was carrying so much faith and hope, that you'll be so happy if you receive that from me. Followed by a farewell hug. Perhaps you'll leave school, with a smile on your face. & maybe, you might hold it tight as i walk awhile smiling @ you. But unfortunately, you left even before i reached school. I'm sorry for being late.

I didn't mean to be a stalker,

But I've got your photos in my phone. Due to not being able to come online on weekdays. I had no choice, this is the closest way i could see you. & Everytime i miss you, I'll just have to see my Screensaver & you'll be there. Or i could just browse my galleries, & see you there. Yknow, i can't seemed to find any ugly pictures of you. Even if you said it's ugly, or it's unglam, i don't feel the same way as you feel. It's like, As if, you're born beautiful from whichever angle that i see you. & I believe, you'll always be. Please trust me, you'll always be beautiful, My girl.

Yknow,

I'm addicted to having your presence surrounding me. Or even having your presence & feeling your existence near me. It's like, it's a must for me to go to your blog everytime i have Internet Access. I need to know how you are doing. I need to know that you're doing fine. For now, that's the only way for me to still know how you're doing. I miss you so much, & it resulted in the habit of me having to go to your blog everytime i gain Internet Access. I love reading your posts so much, because it seriously makes me happy. Especially when your posts are about me. But i guess, the chances of you posting about me, are getting lesser already.

But still,

Please, remember that promise you made for me. You'll be happy, no matter what obstacles comes for you. That mesmerizing smile that I've always yearned so much for. Please, for my sake, keep that smile up for me. I don't wanna see you upset, Please.

I miss you.

I'm sorry i can't be, Perfect

I don't think you'll be able to see what I'm going to post here before you leave tomorrow. But still, i'm gonna post just for this small little chance that you might come online to view my blog before you go off tomorrow morning. I'll be fighting for this small chance you might come. But it's okay if you don't.

I've been thinking,
Whether to make a small gift for you, before you leave Singapore tomorrow & travel to somewhere else. But that small thing, would remind you, that i'll be constantly thinking about you when you're gone. & hope you do the same for me also. One week ain't easy, but i'll get pass it. I was thinking of fetching you from the airport when you come back. But i don't know when and what time will you be back. & whether you'll be travelling back home by school bus or alone.

Please, tell me that you miss me too.

P/s: If i never get to tell you before you leave, i'll say it here. Hoping there's this slight chance you'll come online to read my blog. & If i were to see you tomorrow morning in school, & you'll approach & walk towards me, i'll tell you:

"Hey,

Guess you're going for your overseas camp later on already. Bon Voyage for your trip & please do come back in one piece & also enjoy your trip alright? Please accept this and only open/read it only when I've left. Please keep it alongside with you. & keep it safe & warm with you. Goodbye, & Imy."

Just before you go,

You're leaving tomorrow,

& probably, you'll be leaving for a week. I don't know how will i feel for the following week without you. But i just know that it's not gonna be easy. A day without you, isn't easy for me to get it over with. Now, i'll have to tolerate this for a week. How long has it been since we last talked? A day, 2 days, or a week? Now, it's another one week.

Maybe you hadn't noticed.

But without you, i'm not really showing what i'm truly feeling. I'm unsure of my emotions lately. When i smile, i don't know whether i'm really happy or not. It's confusing. & I hate this situation right now. I'm in an unclear state of emotions. & I really need to get my stand back. & i need to grab a hold of myself.

Even right now,

As i'm posting. I don't have an idea what i really want to post. My emotions are running wild. I used to be able to post continuously & not stop to think about what to post. But now, for every sentence, i have to stop. & think about, what i really wanna type.

I don't like this. Please, end this.

I Love You , is a 2 word-phrase.

Because, 'You' & 'I' is counted as 1.

Title-less

I thought i had it all,

I was Terribly wrong.

Please know that,

I've never been better off, without you. Times and everything without you. Isn't great nor good. Without you, i can't seemed to find my motivational quotes, Without you, many things goes wrong. I have an unstable flow of moods. I don't want this. I have really been wondering & thinking, what did i do wrong to make you so angry. I just can't seemed to find out why. I just can't.

I'm sorry.

Thank you.

Thanks to Ivan Ltw, Chee Yuinping, Mojinn Lehh, Roxanne Sylvia, Chiewy Goh, Weiru Neo, Shah Rizan, Rachel Choi, Ahwei Chua, Audrey Leong, Jelyn Koh, Yanling Tan, Gavin Liaw, Felise Tan, Shirlene Luvv, Jocelyn Chua, Ysabrell Goh, Alvin Chiphunk, Dorin Tang, Koh Yu Wei, Regine Teng, Evelyn Venice Ong, Michelle Kitty Abella Wong, Kellin Kng, Aw Chieh Liang Jason, Esther Goh, YuXiang Wong, HaoJie Koh, Powerpuff Janelle Lim, Brendon Chua, Sherlyn Neo Fang Qi, ZhiLin So Ji Lyeong, Yiying Neo, Ho YaoJoe, Nur Hafizah, Yillis Tng, Seah Kj, Cel Leste, Dain Zain, Ang Yu Ting ZhengHuan Hoe, Aileen Ong, YanTing Bombyou, Nur Syahfurah, Bella Ng, Darina Nho, Kim HongMin, Huang Kai, Hafizah Jufri, Emily Kathleen Brown, Liling Eunice Quak, Dansen John Chua, Diah S. Keenan, Jason Tey Yi Chear, Fiona Lee Jia Ying, Nicole Tang Shyan, Angela Chen Lishi, Joleen- Cxzx, Levina Teo, Huzyer Francesc, Jiaming Ong, Chiew Min, Gilyn Lim, Farah Nabilah Bte Roslee, Ng Wan Lin, Venice Pxy, Jalal Friday, Corinna Yee, Chanel Jocelyn Kiew, Sheena Tan, Darren Sim, Khaw HuiLing, Siewhwann Ng, Nur Syuhaidah Iqma, Shihua Soh, Fydie Fredward, Catherine Toh, Qiu Nan, Johner Tham, Jonathan Nasr & Iris Wong for wishing me Happy Birthday on facebook. (Not arranged in order.)

& also,

Leqi, Yuinping, Joey, Sheila, Jialing, Chermaine, Jelyn, Mingwei, Pearlyn, Miaoting, Jeslyn, Brendon, Yanling, Chanraj, Yilin, Eugene, Edmund, Geraldine, Weekiat, Sethi, Suyee, Fangting, Minpei & Audrey

& also,

Miss Loke & Sylvia to personally called me to wish me a Happy Birthday also.

& Joan for wishing me happy birthday face to face.

P/s: Sorry if i missed out any names. Do tell me, & i'll add you in.

Lastly,

Thanks for your cake, yknow who you are. :/

Best birthday ever.

On your birthday night,

All you could do was to cry.

How does it feel,

To have a million of things that you wished would never happen on you, happen on your birthday? & no matter how much you didn't want it to happen, it just seems to carry on hitting you softly & slowly killing you inside? The feeling of the penetrating knives going deeper into your skin. It doesn't feels good.

I'm not trying to seek for any attention here.

But it's just, I don't feel right nor good now. I'll admit, i'm upset. But what could i do about it? I gotta carry on.

From the very moment i woke up,

I wasn't really feeling as good though. I wanted to not go for school so much. But i couldn't. I wanted a perfect attendance for school. I don't want any bad records. I had no choice, but to face the school & my so-called friends. My class sang the birthday song for me outside class. It was nice of them, but i didn't want that. I've never liked someone trying to do so much for me. I didn't want the whole school to know about it. Only the friends of mine to know it, is sufficient already.

Then,

School ended soon later. I went outside of school, & came back. & soon started to School's Handball training. But it rained soon later. Then, i have to go off for the Youth Handball training about an hour later. It started from 6 pm till 10 plus. I reached home only @ 11, only to not find my entire family there for me to celebrate my birthday with me. I only saw my second brother & my maid home. Then, i called my mum. Only to realise she's not coming home to celebrate my birthday with me. Then i asked mum, 'Then where's korkor?' But only to find that the truth is only hurting me deeper. He's not coming home either. & my mum had asked me to blow the cake by myself. How does it feels, to know that your family can't make it back to celebrate your birthday with you. When your birthday only comes once a year. I put down the phone soon later. I laid down on my bed, only to know my tears was rolling one by one, out of my eyes. I was missing you daddy. Missing how well and comfortable it felt, to have your full family to celebrate your birthday with you. But you know, no matter how much you want that to happen again, it just won't happen anymore. Knowing that you can never bring him back anymore. Knowing he's gone to another dimension or a distant place where he belongs. My only remembrance of you celebrating my birthday with me. Was 10 years ago. & this year, it's the 11th. Never in my life, would i come back home, to only find such great disappointment. & i seriously wish i wasn't going home yesterday. After a tiring day in School & trainings, you only thing that you wish for when you reach home, is to wish for your family to be there for you. But things never go my way. I've never really reached home, being able to see my entire family at home. But, it's my birthday, at least do it for me, once a year. & I'm really not asking too much.

I laid down,
& i can't seem to stop crying. Only to realise, i cried myself to sleep last night. & i shouldn't even be crying on the night of my birthday. The pain is penetrating. It's painful. & it's hurting me much.

I wanted you to be the only one,

To be able to hear my sorrows.

Not just anyone,

But only you.

Crush, crush, crush. On you.

Today's post is gonna be a short & brief one.

I had a terrible nightmare. I remembered it when i woke up, but forgotten soon later when i fell back asleep. It's been quite sometime since I've had a nightmare. It really was scary, i swear. I woke up, sweating all over. Shivering a little bit. Then,

• Mingwei's house to bainian, gamble & stuffs.
• Went to Yewtee to eat dinner & watch some performance.
• Eat @ yewtee point foodcourt..

I'm glad that,

Things are finally fine now. I'm glad that we're fine, i'm glad that we're fine back together again.

I wanted to end off the day with something nice & something useful.

But in the end, it didn't really happen. I was stopped by fate.

I can't remember how it feels to be in the arms of the most beloved,

& deeply-remembered person already.

Are you happy for all that's happening now?

& please.
Stop fucking pointing fingers @ me for breaking her heart. It faded. & it ended. That's fucking love. & I've never believed in it. You feel the same? Your own fucking problem. I lead this life not for anyone. I fucking lead it myself. I'm dead, my problem. I kill someone, my problem. I don't need anyone to talk to me. Read this well. I DON'T FUCKING NEED ANYONE'S SYMPATHY. GET THIS BITCH. _|_

You / You All,

Have just killed me. Inside, out.

1 victim & counting.

&,

Let me tell you this. I'm not only emotionally tired. I'm also physically & mentally tired. You think you can be there for me? Comeon, try me. If you fail to do so. Too bad. Because i'm not gonna fucking pity you. If you're gonna give in your best efforts to try to cheer me up, seriously. Drop that idea _|_

If anyone is gonna try to find a quarrell or tiff with me,

It's okay, Don't have to quarrell, i'll just say a goodbye. & that's a fucking end to any relations that i have with you, I don't need anybody's sympathy or sympathetic front.

Don't believe me?

Comeon, you can just fucking try me. One victim & counting.

I'm sorry,
But i've got nothing to post nor say. No point forcing or asking me to do things that i absolutely have no idea or interest in doing right now. Fuck. Seriously. I have no mood to post whatever right now. Seriously, i'm pissed off. Cry for all i care, laugh for all i care. Do whatever for all that i care. Let me announce this now,

I'm fucking single now.

I'm not gonna fuck care if you're gonna call me a despo or flirt. Because that's what i will be. Girls fucking spoiled the impression i have among them. Just wait and see. _|_

A series of unfortunate events around me.

It's gonna be a long post today.

I know it. Guaranteed. Because I have alot to post. If you don't like wordy posts. very sorry about that. Woke up by Mama in the morning. She was telling me to wake up to go watch Singapore Airshow 2010. It was a spectacular performance put up by Singapore, Korea, USA & a few other countries. There's this plane that i super like. Not sure if my Brother got take the picture or not. F-50. It's in Red & White. REDDDD! My favorite colour siahh! :D

So,

As we continued walking around. Seeing all the aircrafts & even private small/big ones, i got more into them. They're just so cool loh pleasee. Then thee sell the drinks. it's daylight robbery. For a can of Coke, it costs $4. Haha. Cool uh ? :D

After the Airshow,

We went off. went to take the shuttle bus back to Airport Terminal 2. There was a frigging BEE in the bus lah. But it flew out soon later. So the journey back was quite long. The bus driver was like driving @ his own sweet time. I think it was because the buses must reach @ their scheduled time. Cannot be too late or too early.

Then,

I reached Changi already. & like the title of this blog post. A series of Unfortunate events happened around me. & this is how it goes.

The First Event,

I boarded the MRT, & soon later, this lady boarded the train with a tram. There was 2 kids on the tram. The sister on the top one, then the brother on the bottom one. The brother was quite active. Both of them looked very healthy, they were mixed blood. Blonde hair, with chinese faces. The mother was communicating to them in Chinese. They didn't replied back. But they understood what she said. Both of the kids were looking healthy. But not for the Mommy. She isn't suffering from Hair Loss Problems. But she was balding. It looks like she's just went through Chemotherapy. It was painful seeing her like these, but yet i couldn't do anything to help. She was sitting on the MRT platform in the train. Everyone was looking @ her. I feel bad. I wished, i could stand up and talk for her. Maybe tell everyone to stop giving that kind of looks. But, million of thoughts were running through my mind @ that very moment. I was thinking, why would this happen to her? What could it be to cause balding onto her? Could it be Cancer? Thus causing her to undergo Chemo & resulting to the hair loss? Or was it HIV or AIDS? If it would to be HIV or AIDS, what would happen to her kids? Would they be affected too? I didn't mean to think about these, but it was really very painful to watch. She was suffering, but yet she held onto a strong front. When her kid gets noisy, she wouldn't shout or scream at them. She'd still approach her kids with a smile and pat them. I feel real useless. I couldn't do anything to help.

The second unfortunate event was when i reached back to yewtee already.

I alighted from the train. & was queuing to get down by the escalator. & there's this granny in front of me. Just directly in front, we stood onto the Escalator & slowly traveled downwards. But all of a sudden, the black handrail that you put your hand onto suddenly stopped moving. & the granny was still gripping onto it. So as the Escalator is moving downwards, the handle thing isn't. So as her body is moving downwards, her hands are still gripping onto the handrail. So she was falling backwards towards me. & my immediate reaction was to squat down to support her. I had to react fast. I looked @ her, & she was telling me in Hokkien, "Save me, quick." So i looked @ her hands, it's like as if her fingers was trapped in the handrail. Or not her fingers had cramped & she was holding onto the Handrail damn tight. As if she's holding it for her life. But indeed, she was. the guy behind me saw & immediately came to help. At that very moment, i wanted to tell her in Hokkien, "Ahma, Let go off the handrail." But my mouth just wouldn't open up. & the voice just wouldn't come out. Then they guy held onto the Granny, & the Escalator was still moving downwards. So i walked up to maintain that position, holding onto her. & i almost tripped. Then her leg was hitting against the sharp corners of the Escalators. When i almost fell, i let go of her, & the guy behind me was still holding onto her. It was crowded on that Escalator, because as she's trapped @ the same position as the Escalator is moving downwards, everyone was afraid that they''ll bang onto her or step on her. So i couldn't walk up to help her. But when i moved a little more downwards, one commuter saw & freed her. She smiled to me. But i feel that i didn't do much to help ease the pain as the Escalator was colliding onto her back. As i reached the bottom, i didn't look back to her. & i walked away. Sorry granny. But i hope that you're fine.

The first event was that,

I reached my block, & i was waiting for the lift, then came out this aunty, she collecting things to earn money. Something like a Garang Guni. I see her everytime, collecting Cupboards & other stuffs that people throw away. I wished i could do something to help all these people. I wished i could do something to help ease the pain and sufferings of people around me or surrounding me. I wished i could, but i guess i don't know how to and i can't do much.

I wished i was a better Boy / Guy / Man.

:/

Finally, I feel,That i've matured.

Today's a FRIDAY! :D

Hah. If you're gonna ask me about school, i think it's okay :D Haha. In fact, you can say that i liked it. But there're it's Pros & Cons of going back to study. But nevertheless, the cons will never be able to bring me down. I'm mentally strong enough to kill that thought when it's been planted onto me. Whether by the look on people's face, trying to show me like, "Hey, i thought he finished O'levels last year already? How come he here again?' Or any others faces that gives the similar thoughts of these.

Ahhh,

But nevermind about that. I've still been coping well in school. The homeworks, the lessons, the teachers, & everything in school had been great. Except for one teacher that sort of like, "shoot" the retainees in the class. & this was something of what she said, 'O'levels take once can already, don't take it twice. It useless one.' I think it's something like this. But i remember her saying something about O'levels taking once only. Yeah, it did pissed me off. But yah, it's still not strong enough to bring me down. Too bad, and sorry about that.

By the way,

If you think we retainees come back to school, it's nothing. You're wrong. Because it takes us a hell lot of courage to step back into the school that we thought we graduated from. But now, we have to pluck out all the courage from ourself to actually step back into Regent & face our juniors. & Now, perhaps we can even call them our juniors. We're of the same Academic Year now. & Imagine and think about it. You'll have to listen to people saying hurtful words to you in front of the class or whatever. In other words, to indirectly shoot you because you're a retainee. Or maybe even get despised by people around you. Seeing people pointing fingers @ you when you walk passed. I can tell you, it doesn't feel good at all. Not even a single bit.

With people coming up to you & ask,

'Eh, why are you back? I thought you graduate already?' It doesn't feel great neither. Wherever you walk in school, everyone is gossiping. Fingers pointing at your direction. Maybe i'm just paranoid. But this is how you'll feel if you were to be me. People having to look @ your direction, like as if, you did something so embarrassing. But actually, it's only staying back/retaining for another year to achieve better results.

Yeah,

You're right. We ripped what we sow. I know it's our own fault that this is brought upon us. We can blame noone other than ourselves. But @ least, think in our perspective. Think about how we'll feel when you react that way. Or how about this, think in our shoes. Think about how you'll feel if someone said that to you. You wouldn't feel great, trust me to that. We've realised our mistakes. That's why we're yearning for another chance to change ourselves. To turn over a new leaf. You might not give us your approval, you might look down on us. But i'm sorry, i've got no time to bother about stuffs like that. I've got more important things rather than having to get all emotional and upset because you look down on me. I'm sorry yeah, but i've got no time to entertain that nonsense. Call me arrogant, call me whatever. That's who i am, & i trust. No matter how much harmful words or the looks of despise that you have on your face, you'll never gonna get me collapsing onto the ground weeping like some asshole without a damn backbone.

Too bad uh?

My Mental Strength are so much higher than yours. I've learnt a lesson. & i never wanna step in this footstep again. & I never want History to repeat itself again. If you're reading this post, & you can feel what i feel. Please be sensitive and mature enough to think now. That this crucial year, is not a joke at all. It seriously determines how you're gonna walk/live the rest of your life. You can either put in one more year of hardwork, to get into the Course that you wants, & relaxed for the rest of your life and enjoy the things that you're doing. Or you could enter something which you never thought you wanted. It'd be the last thing on earth you'll ever do, to enter that course. & suffering for the rest of your life. & regret for why hadn't you listened and studied well and hard for O'levels. & Ending up entering this course, which you hate it so much, that no matter how hard you try, you can never seemed to enjoy doing what you are.

Humans only perform at it's best,

When they're doing something that they like and enjoy. You'll never excel in doing something, that you bear grudges for, and something that you don't like and hate doing. You can never excel in that. Trust me. I finally understand why my teachers had been begging and asking me to study for the past few years. I've finally understand. & i'll apologise to all my past teachers, for being rude and being a disobedient kid in class. I've regretted. Sorry.

Wives, wives, wives.

Hi!

Let's talk about a hot topic today shall we? :D Haha, Let's talk about Wives. Haha. Yknow what i feel now? I think, it's so damn cool being able to have so many wives. Haha. All the 大老婆, 二老婆, 三老婆, 小老婆. . Don't you think it's like so cool ? :D If you don't, too bad. But i think it's just awesome.

Haha.

So maybe, if i would to daydream that i'm in the olden days, maybe i could like have like, Errr, 7 Wives? :X HAHAHA. So everyday, can have a different wife. Haha. So i was like telling Love about it. Haha. She not happy! :$ She wants more time with me. Haha. So i told her, I choose 5 wives. Haha. She says she wants to be the Biggest one! Haha.

Then,

on Monday, i spend my day with Love. Tuesdays with my 1st Mistress, then so on and so forth. Haha. But since i only have 5 wives, Love says that she wants to have more time with me. Then make the rest of the Mistresses jealous. Haha. So on weekdays i spend with each and everyone of them including love. Then on Saturdays, I'll spend an extra day with Love. Hahaha. Then guess what is sunday for? Haha. Pstt, let me tell you :D Haha.

Sunday is for, ..

FOR ALL OF THEM ALL TOGETHER! Hahaha. Isn't it cool? All meet up together. All my 5 wives spend time together. Then in the night, .. WOOHOOO! FUN TIME :X HAHAHAHA. Okayokay joke. Haha. I should get One Wife from Japan, One from some Angmoh Country, One from Vietnam, One from India, One from Singapore. Haha. So i've got an International Family! :D HAHAHA. All my babies, will be like mixed. HAHAHA :X That's like awesome y'all! :D Hahaha. Maybe i should really get more wives :D Haha. It'll be fun :D HAHAHA. But that'll only happen in my dreams man! :X HAHAH. Coolcoolcoooooool!

I can't stop thinking about it.

NEHNEH, woooohoooo! This thought is getting addictivee! :D Haha.

Oh anyway,

I'VE BEEN SUCCESSFUL IN MY APPLICATION TO RETAIN SECONDARY 4 IN REGENT IN 2010! Isn't that like just awesome? But I'll have to sacrifice alot. Haha. Meaning, Lesser computer time, Lesser time with friends, & alot of other things lah. Haha. & I might not be able to online so much. But do keep in contact with my TWITTER! :D Haha, i shall be updating it quite often. Hahaha. Alright? Tomorrow I'm starting school already. Haha. Quite strict school rules i must say.

Haha.

Oh, & i dropped POA & D&T. Cause my class doesn't have POA. & my D&T has already got a B3 for O'levels last year already. Haha. & D&T is super time consuming. Haha. So I'll only be taking English, Mother-Tongue, E-Maths, Combined Humanities(SS + Geog), & Combined Science (Physics & Chemistry). Haha. Wish me all the best! For Maths, I'll have to learn everything from Scratch. From Secondary 1 Maths to Secondary 4 ones. Haha. & the rest also. Haha. I should turn in early already. Haha. Have to report to school tomorrow @ 7.20am for grooming check and others.

It'll be a total new environment.

Hope i'll be able to cope with it fast :D Wish me luck everyone. Okayokay, i've got to go pack my bag and plan my studies and handball already. Oh, I gotta go! BYEEE! :D

Another day of fear, for the results of my appeal to retain

Received a call from Mama today.

With regards to the Appeal for Retain. Mama told me that we'll have to go down to school tomorrow @ 1pm. I'm really hoping that it'll be a success for me to retain. :/ Please pray for me for this night everyone :/

Okay,
Let's get back to the day. Went back to school, for Handball Training. Training was fine. Haha. Had been training with the New Boys recently. They've been nice to have listened to my instructions :D Obedient. I thought they wouldn't cooperate with me. But yah, I'm glad that they did. :D Today, Mr Low took over the Coaching Session. So did this and thats, so after that played game. Haha. Mr Gabriel didn't want Jonathan Lian & Me to play. & they wanted to see how the team will play without us. Haha. So they played, and it was not so bad :D Haha, Might have a slight chance of winning the PESS this year. If the bonds of the team continues to get better. Haha.

Anyway,
After that we finished already. & dance will having their Macdonalds @ the canteen. So i was looking for Love, but couldn't find her. Haha. She said she saw me. So bad of her right? Allow her to see till me, but i didn't managed to get a glance of her. HAHAHA. NEHNEH, Next time i shall peep @ her. Haha. Then she wouldn't know i looking. HAHAHA! Too badddd!~

Love,

Imissyou.

This is gonna be a damn long post! :D

Woke up in the morning today,

Was suppose to meet Mingwei @ 10am to go work together. But that nipple-face, overslept & only woke up @ 12 plus. So missed out 1 hour of work. Then after that, i popped back to sleep. Haha. Soon later, ahwei called to tell me that we still had to go to work. He that nehtao lah. Made me missed out 1 hour of work. WASTED! Ah nevermind, okay.

So,

We planned on meeting @ 1 then we go work together. Haha, But i went back to sleep right after picking up his call. Was semi-conscious you see :X Haha. Somemore, the worst thing is that, there wasn't anyone @ home! So yah, jialat lah. Luckily he called me @ 1. Then i woke up, see the time, then picked-up the phone. I had no Caller-ID, so didn't have any idea who called. But i was thinking that it might be Ahwei. So yah, jumped out of bed, cleared my throat & answered the phonecall. (I cleared my throat, because i didn't want him to know i was actually still sleeping when i was supposed to be @ Yewtee meeting him already.)

& so,

He's @ Yewtee waiting for me already. But guess what, i just wokeup :X But luckily he didn't know :X Hahaha. So i told him, give me a 10 minutes, & i rush to prepare. Haha. So jumped out of bed, grabbed a pair of shorts and shirt. Went to shower & brushed my teeth. & i skipped breakfast-cum-lunch, & rushed to yewtee. Haha.

Then we trained to Jurong.

Went to Beijing 101 Haircare to approach them with inquiries about the Fliers thingy. So we walked into the shop, & the first thing they said was, "Oh, you guys are the one that are here to give the fliers one uh?". Then ahwei and i was like, ._. HAHAHA. So we were looking @ the fliers that was wrapped up by an old newspaper. On the cover, it wrote 2K in red & there as a big circle around it. It's like some kinda aura around it. COOL! So yah, we were shocked lah. 2K ley! That's a bi sum of fliers. It's like Ahwei & I will have to give out 1k each. SCARYY!~ But lucky didn't lah. So she took out half the stack, and handed it over to me and ahwei lah. So it's like 1k in total. BUT IT'S STILL ALOT FOR THE FIRST TIME! :X Hahaha! Then we gave our contacts numbers.

& Off we go to give put the fliers.

Just started, quite bored. But i was trying to think of a way to make everything feel & seemed more interesting. So i gave out fliers with pose & sound effects. So i take the fliers, give out already, will give sound like, "TA-DAHH!" or not is, "BLINGGG!" or not is "WEEEE!" Haha. Then the poses all very the funny one. Haha. Then it managed to attract more people to smile & take my Flier. Haha. Then Mingwei wanted to try my pattern also :X HAHAHA. So yah, we were doing crazy stuffs that were making passer-bys laugh and smile. Haha. Then got this school girl, walk pass me, then i "TA-DAHHH!" to her, then she took my Flier. Then after a very long period of time, she walked back, saw me. & suddenly tell me. "TA-DAHHH!". I was like shocked, then Mingwei told me that it was the girl that i did the "TA-DAHH!" to.

So you see,

I was remembered by them by the "TA-DAHH!" thing. Then Mingwei and I was like saying, they recognised me by the "TA-DAHH!". Then scully one day get famous, then people post on Stomp.sg & others. Haha. But quite fun lah. Me and ahwei, keep crapping. Haha. Seriously is like crap none stop siah. Haha. Then we got our Self-Acclaimed Breaktime. Haha. So we were like super thrifty lah. Went to buy Bubbletea. Then that gayboy was like saying, "Eh, must buy something that can drink and chew one!" Haha. Then i heckcare him lah. Just go as per normal & bought my Honeydew Sago. Then he bought his Ice Chendol. & then @ there keep showing off. Saying that his one got things to eat. Haha. Such an asshole that he is :X HAHAHA.

Then it's like, i was drinking the worst Honeydew Sago of my life. It tasted like plain water. But with Honeydew flavouring. It's like "Wth, my one taste like plain water siah!" Haha. Then ahwei still at there showing off, saying his one taste the best. Can eat and drink @ the same time. NEHNEH! Irritating siah he :X HAHAHA. Then soon we finished drinking, then if you know my apetitie, it's BIGGGG! So i wanted to eat the Meesiam that was right in front of me. NEHNEH de loh. Like purposely seducing me to go buy it like that. Haha. So yah, in the end. It succeeded, & i went to buy it. Haha.

Then after finished eating it,
We went to continue to give out the fliers. Soon later, Pengkoon came & we knocked off from work. Haha. So went back to report. & then we back to Lot to meet Joseph. Waited for around half an hour then he came. So went to Library, he was doing his Mother-tongue homework. Haha. I was just reading the magazines while Pengkoon & Mingwei was teaching him the words. All along, i sucked in Mother-Tongue already. So it'd be a very bad idea for me to teach him. If not he'll end up being one of the three person that failed mother-tongue O'levels in school last year. Haha.

Could you believe that?

I was actually one of the three person to have failed mother tongue. Me, Josey & Louis failed Chinese for the entire Olevel takers for express. WTH! :/ So yah, then soon later, it was late & we needed to go home already. Haha. So yeah, bid goodbye & left. Then me and ahwei was talking while we were strolling to the Bus Interchange. We at there complaining, saying take bus is better. Because we finished Secondary 4 already. Then the card has terminated already. So now become adult fare. NEHNEH, i left 2 dollars plus in my card, but i still couldn't board the MRT, so yah. Went to take the bus, & just dropped 55cents inside. Haha. The uncle wouldn't know that my card has terminated & i'm using adult fare already mah. Haha.

So,

We were listening to our own music on the way back. Soon it reached his stop, & he alighted. & then soon it was mine :D Haha, Took a slow walk back home, & TA-DAHHH! Here i am blogging right now :D Haha. Awesome ayee ? :D I'm tired already, and i ought to go rest now already. My body clock seriously screw up already. Till now, still cannot sleep. This has been happening for days already. Seriously gotta change it back. Just in case, my appeal for retain is a success! :D HAHA. Let's hope it'll succeed :D YAYYYY!~

Tomorrow's doomz day already.

It's tuesday, & the VP told me that she'll call me or mama today to tell us about whether i can go back to repeat or not. Tomorrow got Handball, surely scary one i tell you. I'll be frigging out because will be afraid, but partially will also be happy because i'm going back to school. (& i can see you.)

So yah,

Gonna be a stressful day tomorrow. Please God, Jesus, or whoever that can hear me. this is my last stage of my prayers already. I've been praying, hoping that I'll get a chance to retain. Please bless me with this opportunity & let my appeal succeed. Thanks.

P/s : I ate Macdonalds Waffle Cone just now. Cost a dollar. Super nice i tell you. Best Macdonalds Ice-Cream I've ever eaten. Haha. Idk why, maybe because i hungry uh. That's why whatever that i eat, surely nice one :X Haha. How i wish you could share with me, but too badddd! :D IT'S ALL MINEEE. NEH NI NEH NI POO POO!~ I'm going to sleep soon already. Sayonara!

Love,

I'm coming back to you. I miss you so much, too much to even describe how i actually feel now. I'm sorry i left all of a sudden. & i guess, you might be afraid of getting back with me. But idk. I'm just sorry. Idk what else much to say. Just sorry ;/ Sorry to have broken your heart, and now asking for your forgiveness again. I miss you all these while, & i really do.

71 True Facts About Boys, That Girls Never Knew.

Article on Guys that Females never knew. if you really wish to understand about you guy, please spend the extra time reading this long post. It's meaningful. I read it, feeling how every guy would feel. Nodding the head in agreement, thinking who the hell is this Smartass which posted such a True & Interesting article.

Make the extra effort to understand more. Because this doesn't kills you, it makes you understand and makes you go into a deeper level of understanding towards boys/guys.

1. Guys are more emotional then you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

[Which almost never works]

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch, .. GOODBYE!

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

11. Don't kick a guy in the crotch. Really, don't. It hurts, A LOT. And plus, its humiliating.

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

14. Guys love it when you play with their hair.

15. Guys use words like hot or sexy to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.

16. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it, can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

22. If you ask us to be honest, don't get mad if we are, and you just don't like our answer.

23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

26. When a guy tells a girl that they have a secret, It is usually about a girl. The girl the guy told knows the other girl.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

28. Guys think its pretty cool when a girl knows everything about something we like. But its even cooler when they want to know about something we like.

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing, but somehow are drawn even more to them.

30. Don't say , "I'm right because I'm a girl." Because its not true. If that was true, then The Bengals would have won the super bowl.

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

32. NOT ALL GUYS ARE ASSHOLES!!!

Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.

33. Just like you don't like us talking about our ex girlfriends, don't talk about your exes either. It sucks.

34. Don't say things like, "I've given up on guys. They're all pricks. They're all the same." Because we aren't, and never will be.

35. Guys love neck rubs. And if he lets you keep doing it, it means that he really likes you, or his neck really hurts.

36. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

37. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you when you were dating, he probably still does. And if he had one wish, it would be you to come back into his life.

38. Guys are just a self-conscious as you are. So don't talk about that guy over there with the huge muscles. it just makes us feel smaller. (Unless we are the dude with the muscle.)

39. The sexiest thing a girl can have is confidence. When we tell you you look great, don't tell us we're wrong, it makes us want to stop telling you.

40. Don't get mad when we hold the door open for you, we know you can do it yourself, but we're trying to prove Chivalry isn't dead.

41. Take advantage of the mood were in. If we are depressed, try to cheer us up. If we snap at you, don't try to help us, just sit there with us.

42. Lets us pay for you. Don't say 'i feel bad', we like to do it.

43 Kiss us when no ones watching. But if you kiss us in public, we'll be impressed.

44. You don't have to get dolled up every time we got out. If were dating you, it means we like you for who you are, not what you wear. (most of the time)

45. Don't take everything we say as 100% true. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing.

46. Stop using magazines and the media as your bible. We really don't care about how hot the Jonas brothers, or Brad Pitt, or whoever the hot celebrity of the day is.

47. Whatever happened to the word "handsome" or "beautiful"? I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/stud/cutie/sexy" or whatever other pet names you can think of.

48. And if you are being treated wrong by a guy, don't WAIT for him to change, because hes not going to. You either have to deal with it, or break up with him. Find someone who will treat you with utter respect. Someone who will honor your morals. Someone who can make you smile when you're at your lowest. Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

49. Don't get your friends to ask us out. if you really want to date us, ask us yourselves.

50. No matter how often we tell you we don't care about your relationships with ex-boyfriends, we do.

51. We like it when you indulge us. Not constantly, but we like to know we've done something right, and be rewarded.

52. Nothing is worse than not being talked to. Don't use it as a punishment, it sucks more than you know.

53. If you have a problem with us, don't talk to a good friend. Talk to us. The friend only gets angry for you, and comes to us with that anger. When they yell at us, we get defensive and angry at YOU, because we assume that you would have talked to us first.

54. Don't insult us, even jokingly. It hurts.

55. Having someone put before of us, especially another guy, really does start stuff in our mind. We read into a lot, whether we should or not.

56. We almost ALWAYS feel our best isn't good enough for you. Make sure we know its more than enough for you.

57. Guys want to be your knight in shining armor. We do know sometimes it's best to listen, but it's really difficult to not try to save the day.

58. Guys like it when you touch their chests.

59. If we mess up, it will haunt us for weeks. Please, be forgiving. At the very least, let us try to make it up to you.

60. If we know you're upset... nothing else is right.

61. When a guy loves a girl, he'll go to surprising lengths to just be with her- in any setting.

62. Guys do listen. When we zone out, were usually thinking about what you just said.

63. Just because the last guy you dated screwed up, does not mean we will.

64. You do not have to wear gobs of makeup to impress us. Actually, we think you look better without it.

65. When breaking up, don't use the phrase, "You are the most [insert positive adjective] guy I've ever met." Because if we were, you wouldn't be breaking up with us.

66. We don't mind doing it, but its nice when we don't have to make the first move every single time. Because when we have to, it lowers our confidence level.

67. The sad truth- we are still only human. We WILL mess up and disappoint you at sometime, but the thing to remember is that we didn't mean to, and while an argument might be the first reaction, sometimes forgiveness is better. (and we also know that you will too.)

68. Most of the time, we care about the things you care about. Just because we don’t have an interest in it, doesn’t mean we don’t care... that you care.

69. If we mess up, and we know it, we'll do anything to get back in your good graces. And if we've been groveling for a week, stop making us feel like shit, because it does hurt, and we mean it when we say 'I'm sorry.''

70. We aren't stupid, we can tell there's something wrong just by the way you talk or you text.

71.Never ever forget a guy's instructions if they asked you to text them when you are done with something, because it will make them think that you don't care about them at all or don't want to bother about them.

72. Guys just want they woman to make them feel alive again.

73. Guys just like woman that are able to think in their shoes.

74. Guys just hate it when females starts pushing blame to themselves.

75. Guys have strong intuition also. They can feel things as much as females too.

76. Listen to what a guy have to say, because times like these, doesn't come by often.

(I added 72 - 76 by myself. That's what i feel about guys too. Or maybe that's what i feel from my own perspective.)